Total Eclipse of My Heart

The solar eclipse blood moon was incredible to witness. My husband, my two older boys, and I woke up at 2:30 a.m. just to see it! It was breathtaking.

I have felt some strong emotions over the past week or so, and at first, I was hard on myself. “You’re backtracking. Think happy thoughts,” I kept telling myself.

Watching the moon’s light be snuffed out by the Earth resonated with me on so many levels. The Earth, I’m sure, didn’t mean to snuff out its light—but it did. How true is that when compared to human behavior?

I consider myself a good soul. I don’t intentionally harm anyone or anything, but I do from time to time. I’ve been toxic even when I didn’t realize it. I don’t shame myself for this—I am human, after all. Instead, I relish the clarity and gratitude I feel because of my self-awareness and ability to see the big picture. I can continue to grow and improve so that I am less likely to snuff out the light of those I love, but I acknowledge that sometimes, you can’t see past your own perspective. Hindsight really is 20/20—but only if you’re brave enough to see your own darkness.

I don’t believe anyone is all sunshine and flowers. We all have some sort of darkness within us, and I honestly feel that admitting and accepting it is how you level up. Having a fulfilling life isn’t about perfection—it’s about igniting your soul! Don’t run from your darkness. Embrace it. It’s part of you, and YOU are WORTHY of so much more than you could ever dream of.

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  1. Fantastic JoeMarch 14, 2025 at 5:49 AM

    Well said. We cannot fix our past, but learn from it and live for today.

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